Today is the worst day of my life. Never felt that bad b4. Was starting to feel sick since fri. had a bad case of sore throat and i didnt bother to do anything about it. Bad choice. Then yesterday, it became worse. Had dizzy spells, sore throat, block nose and block ears. My dad thought i was crazed cos i was saying hello to myself the whole time. i cant help myself. had to check whether my ear was block. Couldnt clear the block in my ears. Felt soo terrible. Didnt wana go see doctor. so my mum maid like a whole load of barley for me to drink. hahas vanessa made lemon honey for me too. BUT, all no use. In the end, around 11+, mum made some herbal tea for me. Its supposed 2 cure my sore throat was at 1st reluctant to drink so my mother persuaded me for like 1 hr plus. Finally drank it, felt slightly better but my throat was still dry. damn! told my mum to call diane and tell her that i couldnt go for the junior cat camp. was really waiting to go. Today, was bad. Like totally. Went to church with my bad throat then went to big bookshop teh 24 hr clinic there to see the doc. Wahs long queue! so waited for quite sometime b4 it was my and vanessa's turn. Vanessa saw the doc 1st, regarding her scaly skin problem. Doc is a skin specialist. He says her skin is very dry. so ask her to stop using whatever shower cream shes using now. and start using the bathing liquid he was gonna give her which had very little lather and is v oily. she can only bathe once a day so she wont let too much oil from her skin. Then doc gave her some moisturiser, instructed that she applys it 4-6 times a day and u can see positive results in a week. well, lets see. alright. back to me. so it was my turn. showed him the back of my knees. He said i was suffering the same disease as vanessa, only more mild. so he gave me some cream to apply. then he checked my body. had throat inflammation and all my other symptoms lahh. so paid the doc 110 bucks. 38 bucks for me. Vanessas bathing thing cost alot. then went opposite the hawker centre there to eat. I ate mee kia and took my medicine. He gave me Lozenges too. Yum yum. aft that, went home watched Huan zhu ge ge Part I on Channel 8. wahs, saw my daddy eating the curry vegetable that my big auntie cooked yest. couldnt resist. went to get a small bowl of it. then decided to go sleep on teh sofa since i was feeling kinda cold and i might have fever. slept for a short while but was woken up by a feeling of nausea. Refrained myself frm going to the toilet to puke. Didnt like the idea of barfing. ack. but my body resistance was low. ran to the toilet and started vomiting and vomiting. Vomitted everything out. then started coughing really badly. couldnt breathe properly. kept on coughing and coughing. mummy was soo worried. she thought i choked on smth. was really terrible. kept coughing and coughing. i couldnt breathe properly. there were tears in my eyes but i cant get the thing to come out. like there was something around my trachea squeezing my air passage together. was feeling bloody giddy and cold. couldnt think straight. mummy was like rushing my dad to go to the clinic. i was just shivering and coughing the whole time. dad thought i choked on smth so wanted me to try coughin it out but there was nothing stuck insidE! rushed to teh doctor. didnt even bother to change. was too cold and numb to do anything. i actually barfed till my specs had some vomit on it. didnt wanna put on my specs. so vanessa cleaned it and was holding it for me. thru out the whole journey to the clinic, i couldntbreathe, i was dizzy and cold. went to teh doc and they told me to wait! wtf. im dying here and i still ahd to wait for my turn?!! there were like soo many god damn pple waiting. the nurse went to talk to the doc. this time, it was a diff doc. had to fight for my survival. just opened the doc's door and went in. he took my blood pressure and pulse rate. asked me whether i has asthma. liek fuck, i couldnt talk. had to struggle between the breaths to tell him. he said i might not just have throat inflammation but i might have a chest infection. asked me to come back in 3 days to check again. siad my blood pressure was normal. and my pulse rate is a bit high. told me not to be too nervous and i must relax in oder for the passage way to open. so he asked the nurse to bring me to some treatment room 3 where she gave me some breathing mask to open my passage way. wahs she took like what seemed like ages to get the thing started. asked me to breathe slowly and small breaths. could hardly breathe. b4 that, my mummy was hugging me like soo tightly and praying. could hear her tearing. she must be bloody worried. had that mask on for not sure how long. i was too dizzy to feel anything. when i took off the mask, felt slightly better. could breathe better. but still can feel smth squeezing my passageway only that it was much higher compared to just now. just now the contraction was round the bottom of my breasts but now its likeon top. doc came in to check on me again. said it was better and told me to sit outside and wait. couldnt lean back on the wall cos i couldnt breathe if i were to lean back. had to slouch alot. was also spitting out alot of phlegm into the plastic bag that my mum brought. still couldnt breathe properly. went to get my medicine. was telling the nurse that i still couldnt breathe. nurse said to wait and see if it gets better. if not, they refer us to the hospital. felt slightly betta but had problems breathing had to breathe slowly and not too much at one go. i could now lean back and breathe but i cant stand up. if i stand up, i cant breathe. then at the carpark, saw my dads friend and his new car. my dad, mum and vanessa went to see the car. wtf. im dying here. im gasping for air and u guys still have to go see some car?!! went upstairs and sat on the sofa. got vanessa to bring me a blanket. was freezing like hell. then slept in that position for about 1hr. woke up again and decided to change position now i could lie down but wil have slight breathing problems. aft that, spit out somemore phlegm. didnt wanna go hospital. so am stillat home. but im still having breathing problems. only now the contraction is just below my neck. got to breathe really slowly. and while typing this had to go to the toilet quite a couple of times cos was coughing really bad. hopefully nth goes wrong tonight then i wont have to go to the hospital. God, please help your child.