Been quite sometime since i updated huh.

almost 3 weeks till school starts. and the mere thought of it makes me sick. VERY sick.

Got my results yesterday at 12am. A tad bit of bittersweet, got 2As, 2Bs and 2Cs. No supp paper! But the mediocre results im getting gives me a very slim chance of entering uni. sigh. oh well, at least i passed!

On a brighter note, its been one week since my berthday! so im 17 years and 1 week old.

Which reminds me.. i've got loads of shows to watch. Think i'l be hooked to the tee wee like 24/7.. i like. There's 40 cds of vampire shows and Friends from season 1 to 9. Im a happy happy girl.

Oh, and i miss the zoo! can i go to the zoo? can i? can i?! somebuddy prease bring stef to the zoo! cos stef misses the zoo ALOT. even tho` nic foo thinks the zoo is just for three kinds of people - tourists, old people and small children. And no, i do NOT fall under the small kid category.

My thoughts are abit messed up. Betta go watch more tee wee!

i have to start studying. :(

had ax trial run today. things didnt really went as planned. but, i had fun!

wen xi was so sweeet. he bought fish food for me so i could feed the fishes. hahas 2 dollars for one packet of fish food is so not worth it. BUT, it was fun feeding the fishies! hahas and kenny was so brave! he touched the fishes! that brave crazy boy! hahas

Oh and it was nice talking to maria. shes so nice and so warm. i like her. :)

hahas and one funny thing, rafiq went around bursting balloons. hahas but he didnt know kenny had a balloon all filled with flour hahas and he just burst it! right infront of marcus! and marcus got the full blow! hahas flour in his eyes and on his whole body. hahahas super crazy cat fight aft that hahaas.

ahh, i cant really rmb what happened today. Blame it on my good short term memory. Laters.

why is it when u stopped liking somebody, he comes getting your attention?

AND when u start liking him again,

he starts ignoring u?

BOYS are unfathomable.

im a happy girl. :)

got to see kel today. and i still love chad michael murray. :)

"Lustra - Scotty Doesn't Know"

Scotty doesn't know that fiona and me do it in my van every sunday
She tells him she's in church but she doesn't go
Still she's on her knees and scotty doesn't know

Ohhh scotty doesn't know
So don't tell scotty
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
(So don't tell scotty)

Fiona says she's out shopping
But she's under me and i'm not stopping

Cause scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
So don't tell scotty
Scotty doesn't know
(So don't tell scotty)

I can't believe he's so trusting
While i'm right behind you thrusting
Fiona's got him on the phone
Yes she's trying not to moan
It's a threeway call and he knows nothing

Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Don't tell scotty
Cause scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
So don't tell scotty
One more show everyone will go
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know

The... parking lot... why not?
It's so cool when your on top
It's full on in the snow
Life is so hard cause scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know

...I did her on his birthday

Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Don't tell scotty
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty will know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty's gotta know
Gonna tell scotty
Gonna tell myself
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't know
Scotty doesn't
Scotty doesn't
Scotty doesn't know

Scotty doesn't know [16x]

Scott's gotta go...

went to watch a cinderella story today. the show was a bit cliche-ish. BUT, the eye candy was good.

i love chad michael murray. :)

And if u blind pple haven't noticed, ive changed my skin! isnt chad just too cute for words?

i love him :)

There's also 2 english writing projects to be handed in on week 14. and tmr's week 11. wow. im so happy im pee-ing in my shorts already. the joy of projects.

i hate projects. no, hate would be an understatement. I detest projects.

Lemme see,
i have marketing project to hand in tmr. and my progress? barely halfway there. ugh.
im gonna screw up all my projects.
There's econs project this thurs. and mind u, its plus presentation.
Oh and did i mention? After doing the marketing written report, we have to present our project on friday. Neaaat. Lets also not forget that the marketing written report needs re-editing cos we need to hand in our ICA for biz software applications. how nice.

so many things to do, so little time.

whoever said poly was easy, slacky and fun should just shoot themselves to death and get raped. cos poly is nowhere near easy and relaxing.

im human for crying out loud. not some machine. fuck. screw projects.

stupid blogegr just ate up my post. dammit. to think i wrote so much after such a long time. assssss.

went back to canberra today with benny, pebble and yong hui to get my marketing surveys done cos the stupid project needed boys frm 13-16 years old.

and wow. just cos silly ol' me conveniently forgot to get the stupid visitor pass frm the general office, i got screwed. From who? Mdm devi and that lady who maryam loves alot and just gave birth last year - mdm whateverr. let's just say they were total bitches with huge attitude problems. they scolded me.. for not getting a visitor pass for my friends and myself. Like what the fuck? say it nicely lahhs.

To get scolded early in the morning is not exactly the kind of thing i would call fun. And fuck?! why the hell do they get so pissed for? its not like they own the school. And mdm whateverr didnt even have the most basic courtesy as to pass us the pen. Mdm whateverr had to throw us the pen cos she was pissed. And she scolded me cos as an ex-canberran i should have known the rules betta.. that visitors must get a pass when they enter school. riight. so i committed the biggest sin of the world, by not gettign the visitor pass frm teh general office. Ya sure, she has the right to be pissed and we don't. And she kept staring at us like we were ex convicts or smth. Bloody hell. If not for my bloody marketing project, i wouldnt be standing there taking in all her nonsense like an idiot. she must be pms-ing or smth. what the. seriously, canberra's got to teach the clerks some manners or basic courtesy.

Fortunately, canberra's got super duper-ly nice teachers and a superb vice principal and principal unlike the staff. =) or else, i would have died. and thank you so so much miss tay!.. for helping me pass the surveys to the boys. thank you!

Oh. and did i mention that mdm sadiah wasn't very polite either? like right infront of all my friends and i, she told my friends to wear properly the next time they come to canberra. what in the fucking hell?! and she was staring at pebble and yong hui. Ya, so they weren't dressed really appropriately but so?!! why infront of their faces?! For the first time, i was so embarrassed of canberra. My friends' impressions of canberra must have totally changed.. cos of the clerks. I mean be nice lahhs. At least try be more diplomatic. grrrrr.. dammit.

i want need a maid. im sick and tired of doing household chores. sick of vacuuming and mopping the floor every weekend. sick of ironing my own clothes. tired of hearing mummy nag whenever i dont do my chores. im jealous of pet. why is it she doesnt have to do any housework when I have to do it? so what if im immature and lazy? i hate doing boring housework. period.

on a brighter note, went to sentosa with a team yesterday. we ended up playing instead of doing serious work. serious work meaning the ambassadorial exchange thingy on 25th sept. Marcus didnt tell us that we were gonna go to the beach to play. he only said "bring extra clothes". riight. and he supposed we could read between the lines and actually figure out that what he actually meant was "we are going to the beach to play. remember to bring your swimwear, clothes and toiletries cos we are going to the beach to play." oh wells, it was still fun lahhs.

Some of the a team members left after lunch and we went back to siloso beach to play. we played frisbee! after that, the rest got into the water while pebble and i just watched them play.

i think we packed up around 8 plus and ate our dinner at harbourfront hawkercentre. then it was home sweet home!

this post is going nowhere. i shall just end here b4 i say smth silly.

hihi =)

Today was a blast! it was fun fun fun fun fun!

went to school for teachers' day and caught a movie - 13 going on 30 with T2, priya, syaz, nisa and vinnie.

the show aint too bad. i cried! maybe cos MARK RUFFALO WAS HOT! HOT!! HOT!!!
he looks so much betta and soooooo different in 13 going on 30 than in the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind where he played some goofy scientist.

FINALLY.

My internet is working. Yays!

Anyways, went shopping with mummy yesterday. Ended up spending around 700 plus cos mummy bought earrings for shirley and herself while i got myself 2 pendants, a necklace, ring and bracelet. so fun!

boo. end of post. =)

This joke is for the ladies...
A man has 17 body parts that won't work:

10 nails that won't nail.
2 tits that won't give milk.
2 balls that won't roll.
1 cock that won't crow.
1 belly button that won't button.
1 ass that won't work.

What are you laughing at?
You have a pussy that won't catch mice.

hahas! i just got a call frm aunty dolly! i'm gonna be an english lector! yay!
.. which reminds me.. my chinese reading this sunday! oops.. totally forgot that i will be lectoring this sunday. greaaat. im sooo dead.

anyways, met peng today at yishun mrt! oh my god, i miss the girl sooo sooo much! peng are u reading this?! I LOVE U! hahahas u silly girl, u are still as funny and loveable as ever! after that, we met kel at starbucks and we 3 girls just sat at the small round table and talked and talked and talked. so fun!! hahas kel gave me this pink heart shaped keychain. so sweet!

k lahh. dont think i make sense. shall just end off here

 

nth much's happening in school.
everything's so slooow.
BUT, i is having not enough time to study.

Happy berthday PEBBLE!
am going to celebrate pebby's berthday tmr. a belated one. cos we had marketing lesson today. bahh. i miss my slackish life.

Ohya, A team's interview was yesterday. i think i screwed up. HOW?
The rest of them had to read some passage frm this paper. Like a poetry. but they didnt get me to read it? HOW? why didnt they ask me to read?! stupid shitties..

hur hur. i got a joke!

There was this woman who had long, bushy armpit hair. so one day, she decided to go to the pub. She raised her armpits up and shouted, "can someone buy me a drink?" so this drunk man pays the bartender and says, "give that ballerina a drink."

After the woman finished her drink, she raised her armpits up and shouted again,"someone, buy me a drink!" Again, the drunk man pays the bartender and asks him to give the drink to the ballerina.

The bartender was very puzzled. So he asked the drunk man, "why do u keep calling her a ballerina?"

The drunk man replies, "Only a ballerina can stretch her legs like that."

hohoho. funny.

im so tired, im getting grouchy.

everyone in class thinks im lame. like whateverrr.

am not k.

stef is intelligent, smart, a prodigy, a genius, blah blah blah.. go check the thesauras. hahahs

alright. so my youth day didnt exactly screw up BUT it wasnt that great either. =)

And since everyone's so concerned about my coping with poly life, all i can say so far is that its okay. hahas not really the ideal answer u guys might want but ya, poly's aiight. aiight = alriight.

The only downside to poly life is the number of breaks we have in between classes. its SO bad. yesterday's break was 6 hours. how shittified.

Oh, and being the all enthusiastic me, yours truly signed up for FOUR ccas hahahas.
- Kayaking
- Student Union
- Ambassadorial Team
- Make up club
hahahas i seriously think make up club is redundant. maybe i'l just tell them i changed my mind. hmmm...

greaaat. i cant breathe thru my nose and i cant smell a thing.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

i hate having fat arms!

it runs in the blood. ugh. my aunties have fat arms! i have fat arms! boo hoo hoo =(
and yvonne is afraid she might have fat arms. -rolls eyes- riiight. she's like stick thin? and she worries if she will have fat arms? oh, give me some credit please. not in a thousand centuries will she even turn fat or have fat arms. fat arms

been sick since friday morning. fever, nausea, diarrhoea, blah blah and the list goes on. thats soooo not a good sign, considering school's starting tmr. yeaaa. YOUTH DAY. and i dont get to enjoy it. this sucks. my youth day WILL suck. =(

spiderman 2 was good. much better than spiderman. so thats how GOOD it is. go watch.

forgot to mention one important thing. i had caramel coffee jelly frap aft accompanying kel to go cut her hair. kel left first. so i got em to accompany me to starbucks to buy my frap. yummay. so worth it.

eew eew eew. some bird just flew inside my house. was so scary lahh. got a shock. was supposed to throw my clothes into the toilet when i saw this flying brown object. eek! so scary! whats with all these birds? cant their puny little bird brains realise that humans and birds cant co exist? that God gave them wings so they can fly away before yours truly starts killing them?! i hate birds.

went with kel for lunch today at causeway. was supposed to go orchard shopping with wee hong and nic but decided not to cos orchard is such a boring place. aft lunch, we met em and went to sch to collect our o lvl cert. but silly little me just shoved my entire cert into my spine-less bag and now my cert is spoilt! how nice. ugh.

yesterday - was aiight. went out with 0412. only half the class came. went to play pool for the 2nd time and i was much better compared to the 1st time cos a certain boy by the name of samuel didnt know how to teach me properly. sam, u got to brush up on ya teaching skills. hahas. anyhooow, went to watch some stupid japanese horror movie. yes, horror movie. SEANCE. stupid show made no sense. it had no storyline, the ghosts were not even close to scary and the ending was crap.

aft that, we went to the arcade to play. ate our dinner at 9 plus then it was home sweet home. yups. that about sums up my 2 days.

i love bitching. bitching is so rahhh! fun! =)

helloes pple!

i found meself a new crush. dee who? dee

monday was great. OGLs were spastic. spastic but nice. spastic but i love them. they are just really nice pple.

orientation was okay. hated the 1st day. cos a certain bitch of a girl was there. ugh.
2nd day was alright. yesterday rockked! the class was o k a y tho` pple have formed their own cliques and erm yeaaa, havent got myself a clique yet. am just moving around the cliques. when i feel like following a certain clique, i just tag along. once i get sick, i move to another one. its a bit hard to talk to the girls.

JAM AND HOP yesterday night was great. Danced my ass off. i suck at dancing. hahas. the whole jam and hop thing was like clubbing except scrape the alcohol. but yeah, was fun. told the class lotsa riddles and jokes yest. it helps improve sociability. yeaaa.

will be going out with 0412 again soon.

haiiii.

am feeling a bit scared now. silly little cowardly me.

going to meet my OGLS and my tutorial grp pple today! Orchard mrt at 4. Freaky sehhh. Luckily got Ying hui. Shes in the same class as me! how cool is that riiights?!

My OGL is like bloody on. The orientation's like tmr but he wants to meet today so we can know each other betta.. to have an edge above the rest hahas. hope its fun! wish me luck k! wish that all the pple in my class are nice and friendly, that there will be no bitches in my class..

yups. will update more when i come baack

I HATE BIRDS! I HATE BIRDS!

EVER SINCE 1 SHITTED ON ME, I'VE HATED THEM!

NOW ITS WORSE. THEY ARE ALL CROWDING AROUND MY HOUSE AND SHITTING ON MY CLOTHES AND BALCONY. THE ASSWIPIC BIRDS SHOULD BE KILLED. OR BANNED FRM SHITTING, MAKING NOISES AND LOOKING LIKE BIRDS. SPCA OR THE BIRD PARK SHOULD DO SMTH ABOUT THEM B4 I GO CRAZY AND START KILLING THEM.

STUPID UGLY BIRDS MAKING THEIR STUPID RETARDED NOISES AND SHITTING OUT BLACK SMELLY RETARDED LOOKING SHIT OUT FRM THEIR BIRDY ASSHOLES. I HOPE THEY EXTINCT NOW.

U SUCK!

shows i wanna watch for june - december 2004

Action - adventure
Spiderman 2 - June
Catwoman - August
Ocean's twelve - December
King Arthur - July

Thrillers
The Village - August
Secret window - August

Comedy
The incredibles - November
Mean girls - July
Shark tale - November
Ella enchanted - July
13 going on 30 - July

Drama
Alexander - November
The notebook - August

Horror
The grudge - December
Resident evil: apocalypse - September
House of wax - November
Open water - August
Anacondas: The hunt for the blood orchid - September
Seed of chucky - December

hahahas so many shows to watch! am so thankful i finished my o's last year. hahas -hint hint- =)

what the hell. its all my fault. my big mouth. why did i have to tell her i was going out with him? then she wouldnt wanna tag along then he wouldnt feel awkward and keep quiet all the time. damn it.

sighh.

yesterday was disappointing. he didnt talk. just kept quiet all the time. SO STAGNANT. and he just kept tagging along BEHIND. anyways, made a list of stuff i hate about him, so from now on, if i start getting all lovey dovey, i'l just look at that list. and get disgusted.

helloes!

am at serene's house slacking now.

went for chinese lectore meeting today. was quite fun lahhs. *cringe
were discussing about getting blazers and having some chinese lector gathering. The gathering's gonna be at my place. we are gonna have potluck. Got my lector schedule today! am going to finally get a chance to go up and read the 2nd reading on the 25th of july. and 25th july is pet's berthday! double yays!

Qiao fang aunty made me read my passage. hahas she praised me k. say im a good reader. my voice is loud and clear, im not monotone. hahas ive got the makings of a good lector. muahahhahas. EXCEPT my chinese has that english accent to it. what the hell. =)

didnt get to see dee today. BUT am going out with him one of these weekdays. so.. hooray! cheer for me ya?

i deleted the post. For fear that someone might read it.

wasted my entire friday slacking around, going to the gym and doing housework. its seriously boring k. cant wait for poly to start.

anyways, went out for lunch with serene on thursday at Sakura. i was so full, i nearly exploded. serene suggested we go play crazy taxi at that smelly arcade at gv which is like always packed with boys. spent 4 dollars on the game. Serene and i took turns to play. Took a whole hour to finish our game. hahas value for money. 8 dollars for an hour.

THEN, on wednesday, stupid shittified weather spoilt our entire trip to sentosa. i sacrificed my O' so precious sleep to wake up at 830 in the morning. bloody hell. ate at YAKUN. the STUPID lady burst the egg yolk. i couldnt eat the egg white. stoopid. ended up wasting two eggs. that #!$%*! hahas two funny things happened that day. kel and i went to buy 8 days at that magazine shop in the underpass. then this guy approached kel, peng and i to ask us to buy some stuff for some organisation. his voice was weird man. bloody weird. peng and i couldnt control ourselves frm giggling. I HAD TO USE MY BOOK TO COVER MY MOUTH. bet he knew we were laughing at him. only kel could control her laughter. was unbearable. so i cut the thing short by asking him how much the thing was b4 he could say nething more. so we bought the thing and faster ran away. hahas

then while waiting at yishun mrt for the rest to come, somebody FARTED. and it was bloody LONG AND LOUD. yes, u read it right, it was LONG AND LOUD. Peng burst oout laughing on the spot. That person must be so embarrassed. Had to come up with some lame excuse cos kel wanted to know what we were laughing at. Obviously she didnt hear the fart. hahahahahs.

and i HATE SENTOSA! the food there costs a bomb! one stick of fishballs, one chicken sausage and 1 stick of chicken pieces costs 5 dollars?!! *grumbles and we paid 3 dollars just to take the monorail round sentosa 3 times for 1 and a half hour. how nice.

luckily we left sentosa to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. the show's not bad. its a show that requires thinking. considering my brain's been dead for the past 1/2 a year, its high time it starts resurrecting. or else im just gonna diee in poly.

ahh, its midnight already. saturday. in exactly 10 more days i got my poly orientation. hope the pple there dont suck. =)

how fast. sunday already.

went to church with gladys today. was okay. didnt get to see dee but nevermind.. there's always next week! shucks, there's lector meeting next week. HOPEFULLY, they didnt forget to add me into the timetable or else i have to wait another month to get to be a lector.

strolled around with gladys after church. it was rather boring cos she and bernard were looking at stuff and choosing pillows while i just tag along behind. And screw the idiots who say that u must be 21 to learn driving. Bernard's 18 but he's taken and passed both basic and advanced theory tests. now he is learning practical. like how cool is that? next year will be MY TURN.

was thinking of going after em and kel finish their A lvls so i can go learn driving with them. so exciting! i cant wait! All the crap with 'i rather be driven than drive' should just be thrown into the rubbish bin. its not like u'l always get to be driven around. its better to own a car license. its seriously worth it to have a car license.

i think that about sums up my day. better start researching on cars. wanna get one once i get my license

THE MOST DISGUSTING THING HAPPENED TO ME TODAY..!!

A BIRD SHAT ON MY HAND.

IT SHOULD BE KILLED.

I HATE BIRDS. THEY SHOULD BE BANNED FRM SHITTING EVER AGAIN.

AND THE SHIT WAS NOT WHITE! ITS REDDISH WITH BROWN STUFF. KEL CALLS THE BROWN STUFF UNDIGESTED FIBRE. THATS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING EVER.

THE SHIT STINKS. AND ITS HOT. WHEN IT DROPPED ONTO MY BARE SKIN, IT STILL FELT WARM. HOW SICK IS THAT?! WANTED TO SCREAM OUT LOUD BUT THERE WERE TOO MANY PPLE THERE.

DAMN THOSE SHITTY BIRDS. damn damn damn.



harry potter today was not bad. prefered the 1st two. tho` prisoner of azkaban has always been my favourite book among the 5. the knight bus is quite cool. and draco looks so handsome. his voice sounds abit funny. but what the hell, he's still SMOKING HOT. the cast have grown quite alot. Neville longbottom has slimmed down, finnigan looks better now and draco is taller than harry. ron sounds weird too. fred and george look and sound different too. they look as if they were frm the 70's. and the dementors remind me of the kings frm LOTR. too similar. even the noises they make are almost similar.

The one thing I detest most is having stupid emails with pictures of dead pple, distorted bodies, chucky doll or anything sick or disgusting. I HATE IT!
-screams- The people who come up with all these sick emails should just die. May their toes and fingers rot while they vomit their guts out! The asses! Do they know what kind of turmoil innocent little girls like me go thru because of them sending all these sick pictures? Damn, they are the reason why I have to use my hand to cover the computer screen whenever there is any email containing pics inside. Pictoemailophobia. Its all their fault. They should just be barred frm using the internet.

my dad celebrated his bday on sat! yay! and em and kel were there! double yay! the yam paste was heavenly! thriple yay!
and pet has a new nickname, luo han gou [dog] yay yay yay yaya!

riddle of the day:
what is 10 to the power of 4?

Most of the Tan family pple were there. Except for aunty emily and her whole family, mandy, yvonne and jun qiang.

Kel and i were supposed to go watch Dawn of the Dead b4 collecting the cake. But cos she took so much time trying to find the perfect outfit, we missed the show! So instead of going to catch 50 1st dates, we went shopping! Went to Heerens but the place was under renovation so v little shops were open. Kel got some shoelaces and aft that we went to marche to eat banana crepe + caramel. yummy! tho` i got quite disgusted with my dad's bday cakes cos there was banana inside too. Too much banana is bad. Spent a total of 20 dollars at Marche cos we ordered a bowl of vegetables too. Went down to PS aft that. Strolled arnd a bit then we went to secret recipe to get our super thick 2.4kg heavy cake. Got kel to carry the cake. Had to protect her frm potential danger [ small kids ]. We took turns to carry the cake. So i was incharge of carrying the cake into the mrt. There was this stupid boy in white shirt who obviously didnt hear me say excuse me tho` i was quite sure i said it so loud that everyone in the carriage turned around to look at me... except him!!

Then my dad came to pick us up at yishun mrt. Had to wait for like an hour plus at the restaurant cos aunty buffy was late. All the kids at one table. Adults at the other two tables. Dad gave us champange to drink. EEK. NOT NICE. gave two glasses of champange to sam to drink. which he gladly did tho` he turned red. hahas oh and t3 ate ALOT of fish. The fish was huge but my cousins ate abit. since we didnt wanna waste the fish, t3 just kept eating and eating more fish. hahas i think em ate the most fish. hahahas i had two bowls of shark fin! em didnt want hers cos she erms wanted to save the sharks! so i kindly ate her share.

shucks! i cant really rmb what happened. all i rmb was aft dinner, everyone came over to our house and i kept going up and down frm my house to the karoake room. k. shall just end here.

Chocolate Banana Cake

yum yum. kel and i explored like the right side of orchard. Right side = wheelock place, hilton hotel, four seasons hotel and forum. some of the cakes look oh so delicious. but i still ended up getting my cake frm secret recipe. oh wells. 55 bucks for a 2.4kg cake aint that bad riight? oh we also went to shaw, tangs, wisma and taka. then we flew down to centrepoint then to specialist centre. and so much for andrew's good recommendation. Phoenix Hotel. Bahh. There weren't any cakes. Just those sara lee packaged look alike kind of cakes.

kel has never eaten a Big Mac in her life b4. hahas and today, thanks to me.. she finally ate her very 1st big mac! and somebody pleaaase teach kel how to eat a big mac!

i need to lose weight! *pinches fat on arm and faints

and i need to go check out the birthday cakes fast. my dad's bday party is like this sat? and i haven't like found a place where i can good cakes?!! good = delicious + nice looking + not so expensive + not so cheap. glady beddy says raffles and hilton got some helluva good cakes there. but who? who? who? will be so free to accompany me there?! i better hurry lahh. Before we have to make do with some last minute Swensen's ice cream cake or even worse, Bengawan solo! oh bad bad bad. its my dad's 50th berth day! half a century old! cant dissapoint my old man! k. i'l try to drag someone along with me.

Eeeeech!!

ive got blood on my pillow! how? how? what should i do? no wonder when i woke up this morn there was dried blood on my left thumb and dried blood in my left nostril! eew eeew eeeew eeeeeeeew!! -pulls hair- my nose must have bled when i was sleeping last night. oh no!

Kathy's final words.

Damn, I had it going, too! I was working both sides, and I was doing it okay. I think people didn't catch on, they didn't mind it, they weren't asking questions. I had that down. Jesus! I can't believe it. I thought Rob was going to be there for me. It was stupid, actually; it was a stupid play. But that's what happens when you put too much trust and loyalty into your thought process out here. You can't let it happen.

Last friday's survivor was so touching. exspecially when rupert started crying. hahas i actually cried too. yeah yeah i am abit too emotional. and i cant believe Jenna L has two daughters. omgg. she looks so young! i thought she wasnt even married! and her elder daughter is like 7 or 8 yrs old? wow. And seeing Rob M cry? unbelievable.

Goes to show how important a family is.

the show is quite funny, really. with the exceptions of my mum and pet calling my phone and me having to run out of the theatre just to answer the call.

oh and snoop dogg is hilarious. so is owen wilson and ben stiller.

Darren.
"alright la
is female doc press then okay la
if male
knn"

Darren on nurses touching girls' breasts to check for lumps during medical checkup.

The guy is so sickeningly cute-ly crude. hahahahas.

its official. my computer's majorly screwed. and its not just the damn computers. its the stupid internet connections i cannot frigging believe it. just realised that its not that im lazy to blog. it's just that life's been pretty much the same nowadays so there's nth much to blog about.

okays. dont ask me why i put the survivor pic here. cant find any nice ones. so live with it.

my appeal to molecular biotech was unsuccessful.

ha! they dont want me?

i dont want them.

just wait. wait till i graduate and become a successful career woman. see who gets the last laugh. bahh.

kok's coming over later to swim. TAN.

stoopiid. couldnt sleep properly yest night. pet lahhs! ask me to go to her syf chinese dance performance. blahh. kept dreaming about her asking me to go for her performance and kok wanting to come over to swim.

GREAT.

the sun just disappeared. kok's gonna be like bloody pissed. cos he wants the SUN in my house. apparently, my house doesnt like him. the sun was like bloody bright just now but now its gone.

ayhhs, kok ah! so unlucky!

To t2,

you know last time u guys were saying that my mum shd have adopted u guys instead of vinnie. hahas i told my mum that yest. and she was like, 'isit?' hahas and the reason she never asked u guys was cos u guys were too smart and might not like her being godma blahh blahh and thought u guys or ya mum wont believe in this godma godma stuff. shes cool with u guys being her goddaughters. more like happy actually. so if u guys are cool with my mummy being ya godma, i'l tell her. then yay! we an be godsisters! not just best friends! so cool riights.

Hellos!

Havent been blogging much thanks to my server. its like always down. urrkkk. am so sick and tired of it screwing up on me. hopefully theres no virus in my comp or else my dad's gonna kill me!

Nth much happened. Been continously going to church frm thurs to sun... and thats a huge feat. bahh. the masses are like bloody long too.

Thurs - 1hr 15 mins
Fri - 1 hr 30 mins
Sat - 3 hours!
Sun - 1hr 15 mins

its frigging crazy k. exspecially the one on sat. all thanks to vinny's baptism. frm 930-1230. what the hell. and we were there at 7. stoopiid. had to sing church songs to get in the mood of baptism for the elects. bored the shiit out of me. whats worse was during mass, me and pet were freezing like hell cos the air con was blowing directly at us. Nic was late. and he sat with us. hahas my mum thought nic was gladys frm afar hahas what the hell.

ohya! i went to the temple yest for qingming. the whole place was rather polluted with air frm the burning joss sticks and candles. i also fiinally went downstairs to where my grandma's urn was kept. was not as freaky as i imagined it to be. still can rmb her urn is placed in column 10a. wahhs. when you are standing there being surrouned by all these yellow urns filled with burned bodies, u get this wierd tingly feeling all over your body? not sure why tho`. some kind of aura around the urns, i guess.

haiii. theres like nth much to update about anyway. shall share with u some small stuff about my church's altar boys.

1st - they can wink at their friend while serving communion.
2nd - they can pull the cross away frm a person trying to kiss the cross during the veneration of the cross on good friday.
3rd - one of `em got slapped on the arm by someone during mass.

yupps. thats about it.

Frankee (Eamon's ex) - F.U.R.B (Fuck u right back), answer to Eamon


Oh oh
Oooh
No no no

(You know there is two sides to every story)

See I don't know why you cryin' like a bitch
Talkin' shit like a snitch
Why you write a song 'bout me
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' you didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' you didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha)
I had to do your friend
Now you want me to come back
You must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and that's a fact

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, I rent you out
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

You questioned did I care
Maybe I would howl if you wanna come to me
Now it's over
But I do admit I'm glad I didn't catch your crabs
I can't sweat that cause I got to go

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' you didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

Ooh oh
Uh hun yeah
Ooh oh
Uh hun yeah
Ooh oh
Uh hun yeah
Ooh oh
Uh huh yeah

(You made me do this)

am supposed to write a resume! its going crazy k.

i wonder where's the pic i took with joel aft confirmation. hmmms.

aiight. been real free so was browsing thru friendster when i went into OLSOTS-church.

there were two testimonials.

John, 03/31/2004:

From old Sembawang road as I still can recall. Musty colonial stlye facade. *****(Does anyone here remember)***** Though nondescript, it has left significant memories. Pretty guilty cos' I've not been attending mass. Well, it was a place that fostered many friendships and bonds. I really miss serving mass there. "Bird's eye view" from the altar sides. Altar boys... ahem" better concentrate on the mass instead of on the masses of gals.. (@-@) Kudos to RCIA, St Angelus Choir, Altar boys, St vincent De Paul Society and all! Keep it goin'!


Charlene, 03/21/2004:

HAHA!!! I am first.. finally.. haha... ok.. I've been part of the OLSOTS community for about 7 years now.. I was part of the saturday evening choir AKA angelus choir. THis is a really unique looking church which resembles a boat on solid ground. Haha.. speed2. This is the place where i received my first holy communion and had a really memorable crush. hehheh. My first love.. :P there are a HANDFUL of really handsome altar boys... and they wear dresses *no offence* which looks really cool. fine ok.. casocks.. wadeva... i dun like the toilets there though. Seriously, they could use a real good cleaning. They er... smell..stink.. real bad. no no... SUPER BAD.... anyone with sensitive noses would drop dead upon standing at the entrances. :P ( am i exaggerating?) i think that the bookshop has too few stuffs. Maybe a few more bibles *more choices* and poster at cheaper prices? *hint hint* cant wait for confirmation. godbless

okays. hmm? handsome altar boys huh? what the hell. okays shall try to type this in one breath.

charlene is the one who i think went out with nigel seow aft nigel got erms 'dumped' by gladys and cos he thought charlene looked like gladys, he started wooing her. but what totally pissed him off was Joel Lim. think he treats joel as his ultimate enemy. cos when gladys tried ways and means to dump him, she had to use joel to pretend to be her bf and that totally pissed him off. and when he tried wooing charlene, charlene kept msgin gladys, asking gladys about joel. apparently, she has a major crush on joel. so im thinking that charlene's memorable crush that she mentioned in her testimonial could be either joel or nigel. still wonder how come she finally gave in and accepted nigel. maybe cos joel wasnt interested. girls in church are going crazy over him cos he wears a dress. thats all! and he looks nice frm afar. only frm afar. period. wanted to post charlene's pic up here but her friendster pic was really freaky. it was almost sadoka style. totally eerie.

okay. im being totally stupid here. peace out.

hellos! played wc and cs today at sbw shopping centre with darren, kok and andrew aka poxitis no more.

wahhs i sucked! kept dying during cs. even tho` i sucked, i still rocked! hahas stoopid riights. i dont make sense. i suck but i rock. i suck cos i kept dying. i rock cos i managed to kill andrew 3 times! yays! warcraft was shittay. had to keep getting darren and andrew to protect my base cos stoopid computer insane keep coming to thrash my base and two times, i went to provoke those monsters. hahas got scolded by darren for making him lose his troops. not exactly scold, but more like whine. hahas he'l die if he dares scold me. i'l make sure he'l never get reincarnated as a boy anymore. hahas.

okays. i keep contradicting myself today. what the hell. stef is turning silly. -stef slaps herself-

went jogging today! left left right right right left right left left right!

and sam, u betta thank me. im rotting in my study rm just to wait for your show to end so i can stop the recording. u owe me a treat! =)

today was a blast! had so much fun!

met kok and darren at sbw to play wc. kel came later and we played hero. wahhs the last map was crazy k. kel's money nv decreased. she had 750 000. kok kept putting me to sleep. and i kept having stupid battles with darren which was like, useless. he bought some magic immunity thing. couldnt kill him at all. kept runnin`. but still died. anyhow, kel came in 1st and i was last. =(

i lost my scrunchie! =( =(
boo hoo! am so bloody sad! my rubby band! =(

laters, ate dinner with T2 at BK then met kel's friend LiXuan. met more of kel's friends at newton mrt. here's a short review of some of `em.

sukphanee. she`s nice. didnt talk to her tho`.

nurul. hahas funny and cute. super slim!

xiu yun. shes v sweet and nice. like the chao sociable kind.

xin yuan. didnt like her at 1st. but she's aiight. got to know her betta so it wasnt that bad.

si tong. didnt feel nething.

jonathan. hahas he reminds me of andrew, abit.

charles. no wonder he looks familiar. i must have seen him on the flat screen tv in ctk during his confirmation last yr.

daniel. looks like ang ku kuey. behaves a bit like ang ku kuey.

leon. wahhs looks damn familiar man. looks malay but is a chinese. super tanned chi.

cheryl. familiar too. cute.

pei ying. nice. like the girly girly kind.

i think thats all i can rmb.

ohya Lixuan is so funny! she had to go for her medical checkup for her poly stuff. heard they'l strip u naked and stuff. hahas then she so blur. the nurse ask her go take her urine. the 1st few drops dont want. only the remaining. hahas lixuan didnt know what the nurse was saying. she scooped her urine straight frm the toilet bowl! hahahas and the nurse ask her whether she got menses anot. so sick lehhs! think her urine must have got mixed with some of the other pple's urine in the toilet bowl. hahas she said the other urine samples were like so yellow but hers look so pure. hahas. shes real comical!

anyways, aft meeting `em and stuff, we went for the scgs musical which like so totally rocks socks! except minus the screaming fans. the place is like soundproof so enough of the screaming already! like aft every song they'l start clapping and screaming. totally deafening. but wow, the musical was great. sang lotsa songs. lotsa nice costumes too. they even sang tongue twisters! like how much wood can a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood. so cool riights?!

had a great time. i so0o loved it.

kel, next time got such stuff must make sure u get tix for us k?

and yes yes em, next time if ny has such a musical i'l throw u guys flowers! hahas! and be your fan! hahas

yup yups. that about sums up my entire day. cheerios`

Eamon

Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back) Lyrics

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See, I don't, know why, I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now that's all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw 'em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw 'em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin' for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw 'em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I don't want you back

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw 'em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I don't want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I can't sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw 'em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I don't want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
[Until the end]

im so0o gonna change my blogskin.

im so0o gonna lose weight.

gonna have to get a timetable down for my weightloss project. shall call it operation skinny.
operation skinny will be a two month project. where i must aim to lose 10 kg. yes. 10! and peng, i need your help! t2, i need encouragement! everybuddy, i need encouragement! cheer me on! rah rah! yes yes! yays!

anyways, went to gynae's today. bah. consultation? my toes.
had to do an ultascan again. forced myself to drink down two bottles of water again. had to feel all bloated with water again. thank god, nth's wrong. just not sure why i still dont have my menses.

1st - constitutional [its just late]
2nd - my hymen has no hole
3rd - my cervix is close

riiight. real niice. dr. scapel says 2nd and 3rd reasons are higly impossible cos i would have accumulated blood in my womb if that happens. so, nope nope. most probably my hole's doing fine. but IF its really the case, the case where my cervix is not open, i'l have to go do a minor op. wow. -fake enthusiasm- oh wells. shall leave it to God. he knows what to do.

aft that, just walked arnd with T2. ate LJS. went home. yups yups. so much for my v exciting day.

haiii. i feel so guilty aft watching Gospel of john. ive been a very stagnant christian. i wanna serve the Lord. i wanna be a lecter, and speak the word of God. or an evangelist.

Lord, help me serve you.

Lord, if i could tell u one thing and one thing only, it will be that i love u alot alot. i love u so so much that not even simple words can describe the love i have for u. i believe u. u are telling the truth.


Gospel of john was excellent. it makes me wanna love God more and spread his love to everyone else. he is the way, the truth, the life. everyone shd go watch. The Lord has smth to show you and that is, the Lord is great.

What career will suit your personality?

You would most enjoy a career that allows you to meet new people. You would also be happiest in a career that allows you to be free and flexible, and allows you to be extremely creative. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

Stockbroker

Secretary

Receptionist

Director

Recruitment Consultant

Politician

Marketing

Human Resources Manager

Religious Minister

Teacher

Lawyer

Advertising

Consultant

Financial Adviser

Financial Planner

GP

Physical Therapy

Occupational Therapy

Public Relations

Estate Agent

Travel Agent

Restauranteur

Hotel Manager

Events Organiser
You are a great leader. You genuinely enjoy being around other people. Your relationships with others are very important to you. You love talking and meeting new people. You are very enthusiastic about work and about all that you do and have in your life. You love being the focus of attention. You enjoy a fast pace. You are very socially oriented. Therefore, you are much happier being with others than you are alone. You crave interaction with others.


You are very spontaneous and often act before you think. You are always quick to answer when you are asked a question, even if you aren’t sure of the answer. It is easier for you to improvise as you go along. You enjoy thinking out loud, and are most creative when brainstorming with friends or colleagues. You enjoy being involved in many activities.



You are very easy to read, and often wear your heart on your sleeve. You are never afraid to tell people what you think. You are very empathetic and genuine. You can sometimes be seen as over-emotional or too involved by others. But that is only because you tend to get so involved in the things you do that they become personal. You want to be adored, loved and appreciated. You like to please others and to make sure people are happy.



You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.



You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don’t get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don’t like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open.

went to watch scooby doo 2 with t2 yest. yay! wanted to watch gospel of john actually. stupid cinema's air con was broken down. uh uh. no way was i going to pay the same price for any show and yet watch a show w/o aircon. we pay for the air con k. anyways, GOJ was at 330. we were there arnd 315. i had to go eat lunch cos i didnt touch a single thing since i woke up. went to bk to eat aft em was done trying to help this lady with her car fine at the axs station. seems like em has a super friendly face. hahas while kel and i look scarier to approach or smth. hahas its always the case. pple tend to approach em for directions or help. not me, not kel. only her. hahas em very friendly riights! =)

scooby doo was silly but funny. like the pink candy floss monster hahahas shaggy and scooby ate it up. hahas lotsa lame shit. but it was aiiight for me. i wasnt blown away. but it was aiight. hahas i ripped this off frm randy j! yo yo yo! kiss my toes dawg!

what the hell. silly quiz says my first job is a paper girl! me?! u must be jokin!

k. i so dont make sense.

im starting to bitch alot now. not that i dont always do that. according to nic L, i bitch alot. hahas bitching is in my nature. so be it. its my kinda thing

he has the looks of a monk, totally.

i never knew my church had friendster. thats the sickest thing ever! and to make it worse, julius is inside. eeew. my hair totally stands. how lame can it get. riiight. church-OLSOTS, in friendster. thats the lamest shit ever! boo to the creator. thumbs down to adding julius. booya

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Got this frm an email sam gave me. v meanigful huh. realised how much my life has changed in such a short period of time. eversince 2004 started, things have pretty much changed. i dont get to go to sch anymore. no sch uniform either. em and kel have many many more friends than me =( hahas kiddin. ive become much introverted, quieter, less sociable BUT more family bonded. been feeling alot closer to my family nowadays. i love `em alot. i love my friends alot too. tho` now's not the same as last time where i get to see `em daily. things have changed. like t3, we are still close but t2 still has sch and stuff keeping `em busy.

sighh. wonder whether we'l even have any time to meet up when i start going to poly. diff schedules and stuff. i know nuts about poly so it'l be totally dreadful. only for the 1st week. =) since im so ultraly sociable hahas, not. will see how everything goes. if im stuck with business mgt, then so be it. its god's choice and i have to accept it. jc's not my path. neither is biotech. who knows next time i might end up a successful career woman and have a lvl or degree cert students working under me. HAHAhahas. that will be the best! hahahas then kel and em can come help me hahhahas. okays thinking abit too far now..

going to try my luck appealing at nyp. if not, go np. not a bad choice either. got pple i know there. =)

okays gonna watch friends. sam burned it for me. thank you sam.

sorry em, didnt call u back at 9 just now hahhaas. to think i crossed my heart and hoped to die. urkk. what the hell. i wont die lahhs. hahhahas

to all my silly pets reading my blog,
your master is going to watch friends now. be a good pet k. hahas. im turning lame.

ohya ohya! saw sebestian today. ahh. brings back bittersweet memories. remininscence of a certain someone. a certain someone that charms me that makes me adore him all the way down to his toes. riiiight. gotta stop this silly infatuation. ta pets~ hahahs

blah blah blah. im going to change my blogskin.

i always screw everything up. the o's are no different. em and kel got to the same sch. i was supposed to be in the same school as them. but no0o. never. i cant.

ethan got voted out!! how can that be? poor poor ethan =( =( =(

sighh.

i hate feeling stupid. *pouts*

stoopid results. stoopid o's. why the hell did i get a 22 for my o's? thats like so god damn terrible. i cant enter jc. not even for 1st 3 months. and now, i cant even enter biotech. im such a loser.

i miss genting. =(

i got into business mgt, nyp - my 7th choice =( =(

have no idea how i got into business mgt. what happened to my 1st 6 courses? all biotech! am going to try appealing to molecular biotech. if i cant, i'l try mass comm or business studies. kailin says mass comm gotta do argumentative essay and slogan in 1 hr. then 1 week later u must call `em and ask if ya selected. parents arent too happy with my results and now with business mgt, its worse. i just wished i never screwed up my o's. but what's done is done. i know it sounds cliche but its the truth. i rather stay in genting and not come back knowing i have to face all this crap in my life. i rather run away frm reality. its sooo much better not facing the truth. joel told me to retake. its a definite NO. no point wasting 1 yr just to excel. uh uh no. -shakes head-

i enjoyed my time at genting. smuggled into the casino like 3 to 4 times. stoopid security guard didnt bother to stop me. was having great fun playing with my 2c jackpot machine. the last time i tried to smuggle in, got stopped by this security guard. he wanted to see my ic. lied to him that i left my passport in the hotel. but he still refused to let me enter. insists i show him my passport before he would let me enter. what the hell. thats impossible. im below age. the casino pooper. boo hoo. thankfully, i got smth to look fwd to, the shows that kel helped me record. tho` a few shows weere rec0rded incomplete hahas. not in the mood for details. ta`

its confirmed. im leaving tonight. so0o exciting! was actually deciding to go tmr morning. BUT. yours truly loves sitting the night coach. time passes faster that way. was on my way home then i found out i will be missing alot alot of shows today, tmr, thurs and friday.- whines-

no0o. my shows!!

shows i will be missing:

Police and thief
Lightyears [missed last week' ep too!]
the channel 8 nine o clock show
incredible tales
american idol
american idol results
survivor

bringing my vcr to kel's house to ask her help me record

changed my song. got sick of britney's toxic. song's frm honey's soundtrack.

Blaque -- Im good

Yeah
Uh
New Blaque
Darckchild, Darkchizzle
The jump off

[Chorus:]
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good

Is it true that Im the one making you nervous?
Trying real hard as if Im for sure priss
By you and your crew, thats helpless
You saw that X5, thats me outside
I know you, kinda seem so confused
You cant understand how my diamonds seem blue
But its cool its true, its unusual
A girl so fly out shining a guy

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, dont think about it
About me on the floor, thats what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin more

It aint me, Im sorry you got the wrong one
It aint me; I just came out to have fun
It aint me, go and find another one
I dont like what your kickin son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, Im good
And even if you come along, Im good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, Im good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, Im good
Say what you do for me than, Im good
You dont really mean a thing cause, Im good
With or without you

[Chorus:]
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good

Playas please, please stop frontin and do you
I didnt know Benz started making Isuzus
But its new, cause I do what I do
Which causes me not to be needin you
When I leave, I got a crib to go to
That I got myself straight out of high school
So if you comin at me, be ready
Cause there aint no way Im gonna let somebody play me

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, dont think about it
About me on the floor, thats what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin more

It aint me, Im sorry you got the wrong one
It aint me; I just came out to have fun
It aint me, go and find another one
I dont like what your kickin son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, Im good
And even if you come along, Im good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, Im good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, Im good
Say what you do for me than, Im good
You dont really mean a thing cause, Im good
With or without you

Im good Im good without you (said Im so good)
Im good Im good (whoooaa)
Im good Im good without you (said Im so good)
Im good Im good (whoooaa)

(Introducin Natina yep!)

(Rap)
Yo, Im only Clyde if you clip me
And I still got ice even if you aint wit me
Candy paint and I still bump Biggie
Halter, throwback, ripped up dickies
She hate me cause Im nice up on the mic
Im twice the size of rice
My flow keepin em' right
Brain dead you need cents like 50
Cause you dont truly love me like Bobby love Whitney
No

Cause even if I leave alone, Im good
And even if you come along, Im good
It dont mean a thing to me cause, Im good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, Im good
Say what you do for me than, Im good
dont mean a thing cause, Im good
With or without you

Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good
Im good Im good without you
Im good Im good

Im good!
wanted I believe by Yolanda adams but sadly, they dont have it. will just make do with this.

Believe Lyrics

Ooh! Ooh! Talk about it
You know life, has its ups and downs
(it)Can turn your pretty face, to an ugly frown
Seems that when I face one thing, another one comes
Clouding up my vision, but I can feel the sun
I believe that I can do this, I know that I can win
Just as long as I have His love within

Chours:
I believe that I can make it, I can make it through the night
I believe that I can walk on, with my head held high
I believe that I am special in everyway
But in order to have my victory-I gotta believe

I have to see myself at the finish line
I have to visualize that everything will fall in line
I have to visualize the land while riding through the storm
I have to trust in my Father and open up my heart
I know that I can do this, I know that I can win
Just as long as I have His love within

Chorus:
I believe... Ohh oohh
I believe I can walk on... with my head held high
I believe that I am special yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
But in order to have my victory

Bridge:
Ohh! Heartbreak (I can handle it)
And heart pain (I can handle it)
Being let down (I can handle it)
No one's around (I can handle it)
I believe I can (I can handle it)
I receive I can (I can handle it)
And now im walking right into my victory

I believe that I can
I'll believe that I'll walk on walk on walk on walk on
I am special yes I am oh oh oh oh
And in order to have victory (Everbody help me say)

Ohh I believe... Oh I believe
I'm gonna walk on.. walk on with my head held high
I believe that.. there's nobody like me
And in order for me to... victory I gotta believe!!!

You're a Bikini. You are the coolest group there
is. You don't expose yourself too much. You
know you're limits. Your social life is smooth.


What type of bathing suit are you?- for girlz only
brought to you by Quizilla

...what crap. im a tankini!

pet is sick. she's got a fever. hope she gets well on time. else we cant go. =(

yays! me is going to genting even tho` ive been there like countless times. but nvm, its still very fun! dotn think em and kel will be too happy about it cos we got lotsa shows to watch and i'l be leaving on weds and be back on fri. means the sale of cheap movie tickets will be over and we have to pay 8.50/show. got like haunted mansion, mystic river, the eye 2 and cat in the hat to watch. they cant watch it without me! i'l cry!

to em and kel,
dont watch any shows w/o me! go ask ya parents whether u can tag along to genting. say uve nv been there for a long long time.

me will be so0o excited if u guys can come! and peng, want come with us again?

Love bursts into flames and burns
like a raging fire
Water cannot put it out;
No flood can drown it.

shall share more about the art of hugging tmr.

someone's wedding invitation

Please join
Kathleen Mary Boyd Welch
and
Joseph Henry Mclaughlin
as they take two flames
and make them one
Friday, the ninth of June
Nineteen hundred and ninety-five
at six o'clock in the evening
Saint James Episcopal Church
605 Fourth Avenue
Bradley Beach, New Jersey

sighh.. take two flames and make them one..

havent been updating in a really really loo0ng time. nth much to update on anyway. its been just sleep, eat, pick vanessa frm daycare [when im in the mood], do my daily business, watch tv, play the computer. im wasting my life awayy. lots of pple have been trying to get me to work. whats the rush lahh dey?

intending to work at night safari. pay's hot. 55 bucks/ night. 1830- 0000. who could pass up such a good deal? hmms.. i could! hahas real nice slacking at home. then again, when i work, i have money and when i have money i can shove money up my mum's mouth when she starts scolding me about the way i spent her cash. yes, her cash.

watched dirty dancing 2 today. not bad at all. the main actor is handsome, at certain angles. sometimes he looks plain ugly, and sometimes *drools.. hunkalicous. he has a really small frame. think he's shorter than the girl. hes got a babyfacish look. will give his looks an AA - above average.

aft that, played warcraft with andrew. -adopts best denki advertiser's voice- best! hahas we trashed andrew like 3 times but that hell of a coward always quite when he knows hes dying. damn asswipic. sore loser. went to the library!
borrowed 4 books.. no, not the story book kind. the adult stuff kind.. got myself two books on social ettiquette. one on the art of hugging and one more about wedding vows. nice nice. loved the wedding vows. shall just copy one or two here.

decided not to copy the traditional vows. they are so passe.

got one in a rose ceromony. kinda cool.
Groom ( as he hands his bride a long-stemmed white rose): "___, take this rose as a symbol of my love. It began as a tiny bud and blossomed, just as my love has grown and blossomed for you."

Bride ( as she places the rose into a bud vase filled with water):"I take this ose, a symbol of your love, and i place it into water, a symbol of life. For, just as this rose cannot survive without water, i cannot survive without you."

Groom:" In remembrance of this day, i will give you a white rose each year on our aniiversary, as a reaffirmation of my love and the vows spoken here today."

Bride:" And i will refill this vase with water each year, ready to recieve your ift, in reaffirmation of the new life you have given me and the vows spoken here today."

Groom ( as he and his bride join hands around the rose-filled vase): "And so, this rose will be a symbolic memory of my commitment to you this hour; i voe to be a faithful husband to you, to comfort you, honour you, respect you and cherish you all the days of my life."

Bride ( as they continue to hold the vase together ): "And i commit myself to you, to be a faithful wife, to comfort you honour you, respect you and cherish you all the days of my life."
awww.. how sweet. shall find more tmr and post it here. might intend to use it next time when i get hitched. hahahs that is if i get hitched. theres this super nice show on channel u now. every sat and sun, 7-9. those old time chinese show. superb i tell ya. am totally addicted. maybe i'l go to kel's rental shop opp her house tmr to go check out whether they rent the show. sure costs alot of money cos there's alot of episodes. oooh i cant wait. a'ight. ciao.

hellos! havent been blogging lately. not in the mood to. got kel to update. anyways, thought i would start blogging again. still not too happy with my o lvl results. am still trying to accept the fact that im going to a poly and not a jc. its especially hard since the past 4 yrs of my life all i thought of was going to jc aft sec sch. oh wells. am just not fated to enter jc. period. see so many pple doing betta and getting single digit results makes me feel so jealous. ayhhs. human nature.

applied for my poly courses thru jae today. going np one of these days to try apply for mass comm. need to go for interview. these are the 12 courses i chose -

1st Molecular Biotech (NYP)
2nd Biotech (NP)
3rd Optometry (SP)
4th Dental Therapy (NYP)
5th Biomedical Science (NP)
6th Biotech & Medical Tech (SP)
7th Business Mgt (NYP)
8th Business Studies (NP)
9th Accountancy & finance (NYP)
10th Business Administration (SP)
11th Financial Services (NYP)
12th Law & Mgt (TP)

hope its the right choice.

it's kelly again! yay! well, im supposed to post bout yesterday too. but due to good short term memory, i can remember majority of the major facts. please take not that the i in this post refers to me, kelly. not stef haha.

yesterday morning i met emily at bout 9am at yishun mrt. she wanted to go to nyjc to pass mr tan chee peng something and talk to mr thong yee bout choosing either science or arts stream. in the end, she only passed the something to mr tan and said hello to mr thong. well, we had an hour left before we had to meet stef and kailin at 11am (we promised to go to nyp with them) so, we went to the canteen for a drink and then to the student lounge. emily played the piano while i read the newspaper. becoz the side gates were not open, we had to walk a huge round to the bus stop..i was sweating like crazy.

we were at amk mrt station when emily found out that she had lost her result slip and her form A. well, well, boy were we in trouble. we had to trace back our steps all the way to the school. we went to the bus stop where we alighted to check but it was not there. then we sat a bus back to the school and checked the bus stop there. but it was not there. then we walked all the way back to the front gate of the school to check if it was somewhere along the way. but it was not there. we thought of checking at the general office but decided to go to the 2nd floor of the school first before that.

lady luck muz have been smiling down on us on that day. fortunately the result slip and form A were in the general office. someone picked it up outside the school. phew... by that time stef and kailin had already finished visiting nyp so we agreed to meet at yio chu kand mrt then go for lunch. well, emily, stef and i had already agreed to go to bodyworld. we tried persuading kailin to go with us and succeeded! emily thought that we should call more ppl to go with us to bodyworld so she rang may and vincent up. they both came along. so fun!

kailin, stef, emily and i went to bugis junction to eat lunch at some japanese restaurant. there was 50% off all ala carte items. stef and i ate some set meal with beef and emily ate the same but with salmon. kailin ate cha soba (cold noodles). the food was not bad. maybe we should go there again.

went to meet may and vincent then went to the expo. the exibition was at hall 1. we had to walk such a long way to hall 1 coz hall 6 was the one nearest to the mrt station. so we walked walked and walked.

the tix were priced at $12 for jc and sec sch students. i muz say that the exibition wasnt really big. the bodies on display were quite fake. they seemed too plastic-fied. majority of the bodies were male bodies so that explains the dangly things haha. some of those dangly things looked too fake..i thought maybe some of them were artificial haha. there were onli like 2-3 female bodies. how pathetic. some of the bodies showed the muscles, some the arteries, some the intestines and stuff. there were also a few skeletons around. they even had displays of cross-sections of human bodies. i think one of the most interesting things there was the smoker's lung and the normal lung. there was a vast difference. the smoker's lung was so damn pitched black while the normal lung was white and larger. there were 2 camels being displayed too. one was an adult camel while the other was a baby camel. the adult camel was dissected and we could see its intestines and stomach and all..quite interesting.

there was another part of the exibition where they showed deformed babies and babies at diff stages of the pregnancy. since the who exibition wasnt so big, stef and i finished looking around at bout 3.45. we were tired and wanted to go somewhere for a drink. the others were so slow. they still have bout 1/3 of the exibition left to see. stef wanted to go to the airport. she missed it so much..so i obliged. however, the train would onli arrive in 12 minutes so we decided to go to bedok instead. it muz be fate sia. the train was terminated at tanah merah. so sway sia. then we had to sit back again to expo..hai..since kailin, vinny, emily and may were not at the expo mrt yet, we agreed to meet them later at 450 at expo mrt. stef and i went to the airport. we walked around abit. i was quite tired liao after so much walking in the morning and then later in the afternoon. in the end, we didnt even drink anything..

stef, emily, kailin and vincent went for dinner at the cafe cartel while i went back with may. it was such a long day..but i enjoyed myself!

*muack*
kelly
(bloggin from 7-10pm)

hey hey this is kelly here! the owner of this blog, stefanie, is too lazy to update. so i shall juz update in her place. here goes..(by the way, this is in my point of view)

well, i woke up this morning at bout 9+. was so tired. i have not woken so late in such a long time. ever since the start of this year, i have been waking up at 530 am almost everyday. first, i will drag myself outta my bed then go the telephone and call emily. "good morning emily. time to wake up.." haha. its not that i mind waking sleeping beauty every morning. i find it kinda interesting haha. but usually she will go back to sleep. see..im a useless alarm clock. haha. alrighty, back to today..

later i went to shower then switched on the comp..wow..wat a privilege. (ive already gotten use to taking-over the comp from either my bro or my sis when they are using it coz i nv get a chance to use the comp at all..they use the computers everyday! and we have 2 computers!) i was online from bout 10-12. it was sooo boring. did some chatting and some deleting (of insignificant things in my friendster) then had to pack my bag (with my swimming stuff) and rush down to northpoint. met stef <--the lazy owner of this blog, emily, ying hui and joanna at 1235 and went to sakura for lunch. ee peng joined us later. and so did fairuz. i was damn full after the lunch..thought i would sink in the swimming pool later. haha.

me, stef, emily, peng and fairuz sat the shuttle bus to stef's condo. ying hui and joanna went off first.

played daidee (dunno how to spell) with peng, stef and fairiz. wah..this fairuz damn toopid man! he didnt even know how to play and kept asking which pattern is bigger than which and which number is bigger than which haha. peng was getting kinda pissed haha. peng was damn powderful man..she kept winning. she even knew how to read our expressions to see if we had the big card haha. darren and alfred came. fairuz didnt wanna play anymore so darren took over. me, stef and peng were juz too good for darren..i think he didnt even win a single time haha. and i thought he was an expert. darren went round the whole house on-ing all the aircons and alfred went round switching the lights haha. stef had to follow them, off-ing the lights and aircon haha. things were getting pretty mad.

fairuz had this weird ringtone thing which goes "cityhall interchange. passengers going to pasir ris or boonlay pls transfer to the opposite platform. thank you" haha. he recorded the announcement down. how interesting! alfred also had this weird ringtone thing which goes " ha ha ha HA HA HA ha ha ha.." u know, that evil laughter sound. i think he recorded his own laughter or something haha.

well, wee hong and yuber kwek were reaching stef's house to we asked emily to go down to wait for him to come. soon we went down to swim! yay swim! the water wasnt really cold today. im swimming swimming swimming in stef's pool...

we all swam a few laps but being our lazy selves we started playin. the boys (darren, alfred, fairuz, wee hong and yuber kwek) were so childish!! they kept tryin to 'fly' off each other's backs in the water haha. i think emily was even weirder. she brought down a container of small packets of MnMs and kept wanting to feed us. haha. it was as if we were all dolphins in the water and she was our trainer. she even tried some hand signals at us haha. how lame. some MnMs dropped in the water and peng was tryin to pick them up haha. there was once i nearly sat on peng in the water when she was picking them up haha. she was pushing my butt away haha. and alfred nearly sat on peng too. how crazy..haha. strangely, the outer coating of the MnMs had already melted and what was left was only the chocolate haha..melts in the swimming pool water, not your mouth

suddenly, either darren or peng thought of this idea to go into the water and spread out our arms and legs whilst holding hands (like parachuting). how lame. initially i had problem tryin to erm..sink..haha. but later i could, with darren's coaching. alfred was tragic man! he juz could not sink. haha he kept floating up haha. we were all laughing out heads off at him haha. the security guard came and told us to get outta the pool coz it was raining. haha. we bargained for 5 min more so that we could do that parachute thing again..how lame. again that alfred was floating up like no one's business haha. i bet even the security guard was laughin at us. i swear we looked like a bunch of 8 year olds at that time.

since we couldnt swim in the pool anymore, we went for the alternative. the jacuzzi. the hot hot jacuzzi. it was really steaming hot. so the 9 of us squeezed into the jacuzzi, actually the 8 of us, yuber kwek didnt wanna go in, and whispered sweet nothings..haha..more like talked tons of cock. everyone started splashing jacuzzi water like crazy haha. splashed till the clothes (lying near the jacuzzi) were all wet haha. fortunately for me, darren's shirt was drapped over my bag. haha. his shirt protected my bag! haha. well, the hot jacuzzi water got too hot and we decided to go shower. emily went up to stef's house to shower (with stef haha). peng and i showered at the public toilet. the boys showered at the public toilet too (but not together with us la. in the male toilet. haha) the whole time peng and i were showering, we could hear the boys. dunno wat they were doing sia..so noisy.

the boys went back up to stef's house first. we know that, coz there was no more noise. when peng and i reached stef's house, we got the shock of our lives. stef's house was a mess. stef was screaming at the top of her voice at the boys "stand there! see! you made the floor wet! the floor is so wet!" haha. she looked at a mother with 5 naughty small boys haha. it was a real eye-opener for us. we had never seen the motherly side of stef..haha. she was goin round the whole house with a towel, wiping the floor dry haha.

we all sat the 6pm shuttle bus back. well, i think i shall end here. haha i cant wait till the next time we all enjoy ourselves like this again. hopefully the next time would be at sentosa or something.

*muack*
kelly

And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly. -- Matthew 6:5

Checked teletext news yest. its confirmed. Friday at 2.30 and the selection of JCs, CIs, Polys and ITEs will be frm the following day, 8 am to wednesday 4pm. freaky. surprisingly, am not that scared of my results. its either i go poly or jc. period. unless i dont do well for my english.

can we appeal to polys? cos i was thinking if i cant enter JC, i'l just go to NYP and do molecular biotech. but my l1r2b2 must be 14 and below so if i dont get 14 and below, im a goner. dont wanna take nething else besides biotech. sighh. and if i really wanna enter jc, its another prob. lets say if i wanna enter NYJ, but my points do not allow me to enter, i have to go straight to the sch tmr to appeal. which is madness. arghh. whats done is done. just hope for the best and expect the worse. just let me get 20 pts and below, i'l be the happiest girl on earth. i just wanna do well now. dammit. got tan family gathering on sat. bad bad bad. this is gonna be so bad. how can i face `em if i do badly? ahhh! shit sheet shet!! -fainting- a'ight. am starting to worry a little.

anyways, went to church yest cos it was ash wed. saw daryl and joel. i think i have a small crush on joel. just a small itsy teeny weeny bit. u know the feeling when a certain person reminds u of ya crush? yeah.. that feeling. he reminds me of a certain someone. oh god, pls dont let gladys or vinnie know about this. can imagine the look on their faces and `em going, i told u. still dare deny. oh puh lease! give it up already. its just a smalll small crush. end of story. and i hate going up to receive communion exspecially when i know that certain altar boy. its so un-nice. just got this undescribable feeling that makes me feel all wierd and stuff.. -shiver-

i think i miss ______. u fill in the blank. not sure why. just do. been thinking about him quite a bit lately. for funn. hahas.

yesterday was sooo exciting!! other than the durian incident. sam msged me and told me that auntie eileen was on tv hahas. my dad was so excited he wanted to record it. what the hell. watched the news at 10. CNA showed the news report 1st. the thing about the windows. hahas saw my auntie putting her clothes out to dry. so expected. my cousin was the reporter for the news and she also appeared on tv. yvonne cheong wee wee! hahhas

then switched to channel 8. was expecting to hear smth wei wei bao dao but its some1 else. some chinese reporter. this time, got to hear my auntie speak in chinese! hahas could see she was struggling with her chi. couldnt find the right word to use hahahas so funny!

yupps. aft that, i went to look for my pink blankie cos my brown blankie is still wet. stupid daddy. knew he kept it somewhere but he just didnt wanna tell me. looked high and low for my blankie. my fingers got caught between the drawer shelf. damn unlucky kays. was crying when i couldnt find it anywhere. decided to look thru my parents' cupboard. it was in my daddy's cupboard! he tricked me! that liar! still dare to laugh somemore. that meanie. okays. wanna go take a shit hahahas

initially thought i wouldnt blog today since nth much happened. i was wrong. spas. tried to help my mum bring in her clothes frm the balcony. fuck. then i dropped my blankie aka dirty towel with flakes. it dropped to the 5th floor. nice. whats worse i got so scared i would lose my blanket 4eva, i wanted to run downstairs.

got so excited i forgot that there were durians behind me so wham! my feet grazed the durian shell. bloody hell. 6 holes on my right heel plus blood flowing out. faster ran down w/o my shoes on to get my blanket back. only realised the pain when i was on my way up. was so bloody pissed with myself. this is the 1st time i wash my blanket and its all for nth. had to rewash. damn. now my fingers are aching. shant talk. too pissed.

Britney Spears - Toxic

Baby can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm falling
There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby give me it
You're dangerous
I'm loving it

Too high, can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning 'round and 'round
Do you feel me now

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
Tasting the poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic

It's getting late to give you up
I took a sip
From my devil cup
Slowly taking over me

Too high, can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
Tasting the poison paradise
I'm additcted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
Tasting the poison paradise
I'm additcted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slipping under
Tasting the poison paradise
I'm additcted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
And I love what you do
Don't you know that you're toxic

Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now

Im not obsessed with britney spears. i just like certain songs.

dad's at home today so that means i cant watch tv or else he'l start nagging and nagging and nagging. urkk. cant stand him. thank god i got my basic theory driving book and crossword puzzle to keep me occupied. got to help pet with her blogskin. shes got a blog now. made her make one yesterday. thought of wierd names for her webbay add. like blinkblink but that was already used. so now shes using pinktwisties! hahahas she lurves pink and she lurve twisties.

was just rmbering what aunty evelyn said yesterday about guys usually having better ball sense. Like duhhh. they have 2 balls born with `em a'ight? so technically speaking, they shd have better ball sense than girls. besides, boobs cant be considered as balls. and even if they are, we girls only got `em during puberty so boys still have better ball sense.... but we'l see...

smth wrng with my spongebob sqpants template. so decided to change to a new one. spent a good 3 hrs plus on the damn template. why? take a look at the drastic change in templates between my present one and the original one. big change. the pic is frm my cousin's gf, victoria friendster pic. cool huh. sexxayyy. tried to change the pink cos thought it was too pink. jah. yes, first time smth's too pinky for me to take. but this pink is seriously hard to match so decided to give up and stick to the original.

went to christ the king church for mass today cos vinnie has some signing out thingy at church and my mum had to go cos she was his godmum and she made me tag along. oh wells.. me and vanessa sat behind while the both of them sat infront. hahas think the pple arnd me and pet must have thought i was an overgrown child cos me and pet were playing that thumb war thing hahahahs and while sining the our father i just burst out laughing at vanessa. a few pple were staring but who cares! yupps. dad came to ctk later to bring us go sembawang country club to eat. my dadday's sista were there for their weekly sunday gathering.

the food's not bad. didnt like the mee goreng tho`. ack. aft that saw an arcade so we went in and played 5dollars worth of games. played 2 rounds of car racing with pet. i won of cos. then played puzzle bobble with vinnie. hahas i won too. the whole time my dad was rushing me to go learn golf. lac lahh. was a bit hesitant at 1st cos i was scared they wll laugh at me what. ohya, aunty evelyn is teaching me and sam, how bad is she? is she that fierce? or whatever whatever? cos she's gonna call me go learn golf again. she'l teach me again. is that good or bad?

anyways, vin and i picked up a bit about golfing. like how to hold the club. how to swing the club. how to position yaself. what must ya posture be and how good my other cousins are. yvonne is learning too! so good! more company! golf is fun. see when's the next time aunty evelyn call me go play golf again. hahas i was actually quite good at 1st know. at least my 1st try i could hit the golf ball. only aft my dad said i had no strength and blah blah i lost my form. missed the ball 3 times in a row. finally managed to hit and the golf ball just rolled down hahahahas dad says thats not bowling... whatever. newbie what. is considered excellent already kays hahahas.

Yesterday.
aft novena, went with sam to meet T2 at PS. kel wanted to go buy felt and stuffing to make cushions for her CT b4 the o lvl results are out. yupps. then watched along came polly. certain parts were totally disgusting. hahahas like that scuba nudist guy hhahahahs and his hippo story. we were sitting on the 1st row! can u imagine how much torture my neck and eyes had to go thru? was sooo bad. could hardly see their facial expressions. hate sitting in the front row. u cant get much of the show. ate arnd 9+. some grilled chix rice. perfect. loved it. it costs only 3.80 yummay!

went to ezone aft that and played car racing again. i was 2nd for the 1st rnd then 3rd. aft tthat, played 4 games of that puck thing hahahas was super fun exspecially when they had that puck madness thing when 3 pucks will suddenly just shoot out and u got to faster shoot it into ya opponents puckpost hahahahs had lotsa fun playing. only couldnt help laughing when we 1st played it. laughed so much that we lost the 1st game. paired with em for the 1st 2 games. then paired with sam and we lost. last game, i paired with kel and we won! yay! hahas i was screaming quite alot hahas aft playing had to rush back cos it was already 10+ and besides, lotsa pple were waiting to play. that game was actually quite stagnant cos maybe pple thought it was boring but aft we started playing, lotsa pple came to see us play and were actually waiting for us to finish our game so they could play hahas we gave the puck game business!

kays.. cant really think straight. did alot of html work today. and ohya, my emergancy exits aka my links are up there. quite neat huh.

i want my driving license!!

michelle went home yest but b4 that, she brought me and vanessa out. she bought for me this basic theory driving book cos i was talking to her about cars and stuff. then she say since im so interested in learning how to drive, she bought the book for me frm popular. went to crystal jade to have lunch. the fried rice is superb. spent about 30 plus dollars. then we went to causeway to shop.

the aussino at causeway sucks. nth much. so got micheele to lend me her membership card cos now all members get a 40% discount on everything. cool huh. really wanna get some nice bedsheet. i wurve my room! deciding to change my bed. dont like the design of my bed. and my bed feels small. even tho` its a queen. hahas =P

ayhhs. there's nth much to update on since i didnt really do nething. am too tired to update neway. oh and im not going to conrad nemore. decided its still early to work. and i shd get meself more certs to throw at those china bastard faces b4 i enter the working industry. shall make them kiss my feet. bwahahahhas

woke up squeezing pus out frm my riight eye. was totally g.r.o.s.s. thank god it wasnt pain or else i would have cried like sheet. cried today when i visited the gynae. had to do ultrascan thingy again. damn. could see my cervix. at least thats what i think it is. was so embarrassed. shant go into the details. dont think i want to either.

anyways.. had to take a blood test. check my hormones or smth. fuck. they couldnt find my vein. my vein sorta diasppeared. so i had to get my blood sucked out frm the side of my right wrist. was sooo scared i cried b4 the needle even went in. kept shouting at my mum, asking her to talk. fuck. could feel the needle below my skin. was disgusting. excrutiating. got so nervous all my blood went up and the needle couldnt get any blood. urkk. could feel the needle trying to suck up more blood. think the whole process took more than 5 mins. decided to start bretahing to get me relaxed and my blood to start flowing normally.

mum said i scared the entire clinic with my shoutings and stuff. like so? thats their bloody problem, not mine. but i couldnt really feel my hand aft that. was kinda spas.couldnt even carry my bag. ohya ohya! my cousin michelle is staying over at my place. shes staying now. wahhs squeezing with me and pet on my bed. die die die.okays. shant be sooo bad. wanna go drink some water. all the blood taken out has caused me to be thirsty. okay stef stop being crappy. well, ta~

kel pon sch today. came over to my place cos she couldnt let her mum know she wasnt going to sch. so she came to my place at 6 plus in the morning. couldnt sleep at 1st. yet, sleeping beauty ended up waking up at 11+. nice nice. kel woke up at 10. she came to my house and slept again hahas.

watched Taxi 2. then ordered KFC. whole home delivery thing costs 14.95.. cheap. was eating when vanessa called. begging me to fetch her frm her daycare cos she cant stand being in the daycare blah blah. she hates the teachers there. so aft eating, persuaded kel to go with me go pick her. had to borrow more money frm kel to go pick vanessa. took a taxi there and back. total waste of money. oh wells..

reached home and watched 2 fast 2 furious. ya! like whats with all the car movies? hmms, am not sure either. then vacuumed the floor while vanessa mop and kel watched house on haunted hill. kel caught the 530 shuttle bus back. went swimming arnd 6ish and got back nearly 8. just in time to catch police and thief. lets go! G O go! yupps. watched tv till 10 and am now slacking infront of my comp. -yawn-

shall go watch meteor garden. oh wait, there's meet my folks at 11. Yays! and i feel wierd. am supposed 2 get all nervous about my results but heh, i dont feel a thing at all. wierd wierd. hopefully i'l get 10! hahas. or maybe not.. ack! touch wood! sighh. no jc then go poly. theres always plan B. if im going poly, im gonna do molecular biotech at nyp. shd be fun. hopefully.

oh and peng,
am not sure why conrad wants more pple. too much money i guess. or they want more singaporeans than china chinese. eech. that china girl's chinese is still haunting me. freaky. goosebumps all over my body. die girl die. corrode vital anatomy corrode!!

deleted some stuff frm my wishlist. think its rubbish.

stuff i wanna do.

go on a group trip to australia. no parents allowed.

go hiking.

try wakeboarding.

go scubadiving.

Today.
was supposed to vacuum and mop the floor but i decided to clear my cupboard instead. real messy. spent half a morning and afternoon on my cupboard. used all the hangers and now my cupboard is spanking clean but there's hardly any space left since ive hung all the clothes i left lying around. wow. and i was beginning to wonder i had v little clothes. filled both my cupboards to the max. great. spent the whole day multi tasking by clearing my cupboard and watching meteor garden. cool eh.

Yesterday.
went to church, chinese mass. played alot with vanessa. still dont understand whats going on for mass. oh wells. spent the entire aft sleeping cos i hardly slept the night b4 and i accompanied my mum to sheng siong aft church. woke up at 6+ for dinner then we decided to go to the pasar malam arnd yishun mrt cos dad didnt wanna go to the metro sale at marina.

Saturday.
ah! depressing and agonising. yups. these 2 words describe exactly how i felt when i was going to conrad by myself. totally dperssing. darren suddenly couldnt make it and i was left strnded all alone by myself. argh. he didnt even bother to tell me why he wasnt coming. was practically dying. wanted to drag my feet all the way there but i was running out of time to even brisk walk. talked to peng on the way there. she helped abit with easing the tension. wanted to cry when i was arnd suntec. so didnt know how to cut over to conrad. nearly peed in my skirt when i was nearing conrad. yes, it was that bad. had to find my way to the carpark to get to teh staff entrance which i had no idea how. was sooo nervous that i went straight up to the manager at the hotel entrance and asked where the crapark was. nice try. it was right infront of me. went in the crapark, couldnt find the entrance to the staff area. shit! was soooo gonna cry. kept praying to god, asking him to help me. alas! found it! went and check in with the security guard. bloody hell. say i newcomer so kalan kabo... whatver.

went to get my clothes. had only a few mins left to 2 and veron said to not be late. riight. good luck stef. changed at super fast speed. but damn! the top was too big. had to change back to my clothes and get an S. spas china girls att he toilet were bloody mean. asked them whether they were new and whether they could wait for me while i was changing. they went, aw. and when i came out, they left! was cursing `em in my brain. i hope an exspecially vital part of their anatomy corrodes. ahhh, much better now. realised i was so nervous i forgot to change to my court shoes. no wonder some of the pple were staring at my feet.

reached 2nd floor. wow. loads of pple. faster got to one side and changed my shoes. saw lots of china girls again. equally mean. they seem shock to know that i was singaporean. right. like thats the surprise of the century. doesnt mean if the place is packed with foreigners, it doesnt mean a certain singaporean cant work there and hopefully snatch their rice bowls. i hate `em. i hate `em. i hate `em. then had to stuff my bag into the locker, fortunatley with the help of this kind guy who told me to stuff my key all the way into the lock. still couldnt open the locker. he had to help me open it. 3 malay girls came in. apparently they were lao jiaos in this area. have worked there for more than 5 times. lucky there was this malay girl who waited for me to bring me to the Grand Salon, the place we were having our hotel orientation. aft that, she sat with the guys and i was made to sit next to some china girl. eech. was practically rolling my eyes. the whole time i sat there by myself frm 2-330. hearing this lady called ashley frm conrad's HR dept talk while at the same time having to tolerate the oh so terrible china accent frm that stupid chatty chinagirl next to me. i sooo0ooo wanted to slap her face and scream a fuck u into her ear. was totally annoying. there was this guy on my left. quite cute. name's joseph. didnt talk to him tho`. another lao jiao. had this prob with lao jiaos. hated `em.

luckily b4 the orientation, i made friends with this chinagirl called LuLu. talked more to her during the 10 min break we had. conrad offered tea and coffee. didnt like either. so decided to not drink at all even tho` i was god damn thirsty. Lulu is 21 and she has a bf. boy did i had lotsa probs trying to talk to her. i was so erms ___ blahh. u guys fill in the blanks. cant find a word to describe how i felt.

whole orientation was crappy. was soo tired and sleepy. had to find ways and means to keep my eyes open. but its quite worth it since im paid 24 bucks just to sit there and here them talk and talk and talk. the banquet director got us to stand up and take a look at the dinner table they set up for us. had to spot the difference between a malay dinner, chinese dinner, wastern dinner and buffet. wasnt really paying attention. was the only one leaning on the wall. think i was the most bo chup one there. oh, who cares. the whole time i was asking myself why am i putting myself thru such agony. its not like i dont have money in my pockets or my hands filled with money when they are empty. was regretting quite a bit. okay, maybe alot.

the whole thingy ended at 530. so that banquet director, steven lim, whol looks like jerald, thought us how to fold that fan shape napkin. and oooh i know how to fold a tuxedo napkin. really cool. had to fold the napkin for all the tables. they were gonna have a wedding later on at night. finished arnd 6+ then went to collect my voucher. saw darren. veron called him to come back at 6 for the wedding dinner. went to the cafeteria with Lulu to eat. the food is free. hahas. then changed my clothes and went back with Lulu and this other china guy who is married to some china girl. yes, ive got a prob with china pple now. found a shortcut to city hall mrt. much faster way. so while i was just following the two china pple and hearing `em talk the china chinese, something poked me. was andrew and jolene! they were out shopping. was soo0oo glad i saw `em that i left those 2 chinese by themselves without saying bye. followed the two of `em to suntec where they ate at secret recipe and i drank my frosty watermelon juice which was good. then they got to go. was walking alot. followed them all the way back to city hall station then walked all the way to marina square by myself and then to millenia to meet kel. aft that, went home to sleep.

Friday.
NY crash. hid in the new canteen with vinnie while em and kel were having their usual morning ceremony. then joined kel for GP tutorial. Mr Tong hahas their GP tutor is soo funny and he behaves like Billy Bong frm living with Lydia. loved his lesson even tho` it was one of his skills lessons instead of his content lessons. it was supposed to be boring compared to his other lessons but nevertheless, i still liked it.

went for maths lecture on binomial theorem. quite ez to catch up. then went to the canteen with kels friends, li xuan, si tong and jonathan. em and kel had econs test. i ate wanton noodles. was regretting not ordering dumpling noodles cos i dont eat that red meat thing. the whole time vinnie was crapping. telling me alot of stuff about YJ and his family. keeping me edutained. laughed alot. kel ate with her friends while em sat with us. em brought us to the library aft that. then had to meet kel for bio lect. wahhs. nearly died. had to memorise all the stuff on her powerpoint slide in 3 mins. was v dead by that time. wasnt in the mood for nething. so asking me to memorise was a total killer. my eyes felt so heavy and i was soo drowsy.

aft that, rushed to the gallery to meet em for GP tutorial. mr tong saw us again. he kept asking us whether we would felt bored since he was gonna do the same thing as he did in the morn. told him to continue with his lesson. vinnie's pri sch good friend was in em's CT. raymond low. ohya, em's friend daniel used the russian they learnt frm their chi teacher on us. think thats about it for NY. cant rmb..