just done with survivor all stars. its sad to see rudy go. a true hero indeed. thankfully, ethan is still hanging on. perhaps rudy wouldnt have got booted out if he didnt had his ankle problems. oh wells, survivor is not about alliances but about struggling and manipulating ya way thru to become the sole survivor. hopefully saboga wouldnt have to go to tribal council next week.

and to nic,
ya pissed with me? look, ive had it with all the jokes about me being fat or whatever. its not in me or lets just say it was never in me to feel inferior about myself. but fuck, if u got pple like andrew contantly on ya back telling u ya fat or laughs when u tell him u can get an A for 2.4 km, it totally sucks.

i got my pictures and he said i look like an aunty. wow. nice comments. its not like i dont know that i dont look that nice. but dont dig it in. furthermore, u said i look like a transvetite. but hey, no hard feelings there but all these small comments slowly accumulates and an inferiority complex builds up. it makes me wonder whether u guys are really right. so admitting it will be good right. it makes pple know that i know im not as pretty or whatever. call it self realisation.

and its not about beauty. its about being fat. and yes, i am superficial. that i dont deny. but cant i? im fat fat fat. thats the main thing that brings me down. im ugly because im fat. im frustrated because im fat. and what's wrong with that? no reason for u to get pissed. and hey, i dont even feel like how i felt that day. cos its over. blame it on the pics or whatver. PMS. im a girl. im supposed 2 be unfathomable riights? oof. why do i even bother explaining. i can even predict what u'l say cow, stop being spastic/ retarded